Sunday, January 18, 2009

Quarter Life Crisis?

It's a new year and a year that I also embark on the lovely quarter life crisis age of 25. It's official, but I'm trying to embrace it.

Yes I'm talking about that quarter life crisis where I'm questioning where I am in life and if THIS is what I truly want to be doing? Where I feel like I'm having to justify my actions for not doing what is socially expected of me. As of now a white picket fence, a home in the burbs, and a minivan with soccer decals doesn't seem to excite me. but then again nothing in my life right now seems to exciting. I guess that's what the quarter life crisis is about. finding what does excite me. figuring myself out(still) and finding my passion in life.

I guess I should clarify. I'm mainly talking about my career. Can I call it that? I don't know if I pictured myself at 25 sitting behind a computer all day doing car financing. Actually, I'm sure as hell that's not what i had planned for myself. Although it is a good job "for now" I pray I don't get sucked in to this way of life and BAM before I know it I'm at the Mid-life crisis age of 50 being one of those "should of could of" saps and purchasing a new shiny red sports car with my new 18 year old boyfriend. Okay....that may be over the top, but you get it.

I must also clarify that boyfriend is not included in this so called crisis (Okay maybe one day I had a freak out sorry babe!) If anything he adds excitement and the drive to figure out what I really want, and for that I'm thankful. I never would have imagined being lucky enough to have him as my boyfriend. boy how life has changed from one year ago. An AMAZING change at that.
So I guess the crisis for me is about life. Growing up, transforming, and figuring out MY REAL path, and finding PASSION in it. It's about not getting stuck somewhere because it's comfortable. It's about being fearless and not giving a shit for not following the "norm" whatever the "norm" is anymore. What it's really all about though....ME! Me ME me! :) Selfish? Nah.

So ummm..... what's goin on for the new year with all of you?